spirit of love

hey folks... tummy is kind of sick today. I did manage to get to the gym eventually and did my workout... cant wait until i get to do some fitness classes again as in cardio. so sick of repetitive cardio borrrrrrrrring. Im looking at the website right...

achilles heel

~My achilles tendon is just killing me; those running shoes are going promptly in the garbargio.... ugh only me i swear. and my new ones rub on my feet and give me bloody blisters etc. I have bunyons from dancing; my feet are a big wrangled mess...

spirit whispers

did i ever mention that my mom is totally annoying? ugh She blames me for that which others do to me.... she pulls away from me when i am having a hard time or when others are mistreating me or treating me unfairly; and in so doing communicates...

one season

I was thinking about it on the way up to Toronto...many things only live for one season in the summer. Flowers, the specific leaves on the trees we see are only there for one round, butterflies, certain birds etc etc. bees....It is really phenomenal...

guess who? after three days

oooo the cat came back the very next day the cat came back they thought he was a goner but the cat came back he just couldnt stay awayyyyy! MEOWWWW lol ; )

what you choose to see

Stomach is still hurting me so bad oof. shaking my head. I had a fairly non eventful work out at the gym which is preferred- obviously.  Tomorrow i have two appointments; one with my new  counsellor and to find out about their GLBT groups they just...

love me

I kind of miss Toronto tonight.... i miss fall up there. It is very beautiful especially compared to here. I miss the Canadian feel the more northern feel up there... funny i feel heavy hearted, and miss my old  home and my walks through...

Tulah

My throat is just killing me.... oof . If it is still around tomorrow i will go to the doctor. No choice. I feel sick to my stomach a bit too. I did manage to get to the gym and was glad for it. Some woman that blows hot and cold at me at the gym; if...

irony

My stomach is killing me.... cramps out the wing wang. and burning constantly. The other night i had such severe cramping it woke me up and i was doubled over on the toilet for maybe 45 minutes.... bowel uterine who knows a combination there of. All ...

end up with a hassle

morning I am heading to the gym and was planning on doing a movie but the times they have set are really stupid for the ones i wanted to see so im not too sure. I  might put it off to tomorrow.... then again who knows if ill be "free" by then....

sick of feeling sick

morning My body is just killing me ..... i have no idea why. It is a feeling of atrophy and weakness.... i am in pain, and weakened. Im sick of feeling sick. I got up this am to go to the gym and it was all i could do to drag myself out of bed and...

a shooting star that fell too fast

I was reading the online newspaper yesterday and this priest that we knew at my moms parish is up for sex abuse.  Charming.  It is really unnerving to know that i was that close in proximity to another predator under the guise of do gooder.  I swear...

full moon walk?

Just got back from my walk...I start out and all is fine. I encounter a group of teenagers and thought they were going to be polite....they moved off the sidewalk etc. so im just about past them said nothing gestured nothing non verbally. All of a...

vibe and deja vu

Look at Benny isnt he adorable? lol He is taking "tubbys" lol what a cute cute kid. Figured id post him  up and give you a smile.... In any case im sure writing a  lot on here lately. shrug. Guess it beats talking on the phone or whatever; at least...

hush little baby

Hey all Talked to Aunt Theresa today.  She has been home for about four days now.  She is doing much better, but they dont know if they will be able to reinitiate her chemo or not.  The clots were a side effect of the chemo. Ive been really...

with Grace

~This is my aunt Theresa and her grand son baby Ben. ( of monkey hand  holding fame) :) I love my Aunt Theresa. she is a true fighter.  More courage and fortitude then anyone ive ever seen; all done with a light and joyful heart.  She humbles me...

won the battle- but waging the war

This is ridiculous this is like the millionth attempt to get this posted. Can we all say ANNOYINGGGGG. ugh I love that picture of Ben and the monkey. lol Every time i look at it it makes me laugh. It reminds me of how i feel most of the time around...

warped

ugh. im awake well to a point.  I was dreaming about Mary Spencer. lol<?? wtf. I was interviewing her for a story.  she should be near graduating soon,,, if not already. I was asking her about that and her "future plans". I woke up to my alarm...

My bad

I feel so depressed all of a sudden lately. It is like now that the pressure around aunt theresa has subsided, i can feel myself again.... oof. I am going to see her today too; they are talking of moving her to a regular room soon so that is a great...

recap

Takes so long for this thing to open, by the time it is up i gotta bugger off basically. Where to start??? Well lets start with Aunt Theresa!   She was sitting in a chair yesterday and is down to oxygen given to her thru the nostril tubes?  She was...

do not resuscitate????

Freakn wow!  I went to see Aunt Theresa, and she was officially removed from life support today, and is breathing on her own with an oxygen mask. :) wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee omg im so...

oooo stormy

yikes it is thundering and lightening out... so this will be brief.  Just saw it. i hate storms. Scare the tar out of me. Aunt Theresa remains about the same....no improvement to report unfortunately. I think im going to go to my niece's dance...

as a rule

~This picture is so funny. It is Ben, Aunt Theresa's little one.  He doesnt know what he thinks of that monkey, but he IS holding its hand. lol sort of how we feel when we are first trying something.... or having feelings for someone.... i THINK i...

tight rope walking

im fading so dont know how coherent this will be... My Aunt Theresa is in the hospital and is not doing very well at all... they figure she wont make it. They originally thought she had clots on the lungs which is bad enough, but now they think she...