leaving out

o btw my brother called while i was at my moms and she takes the call and is following me around the house so i could hear i left the room immediately and she deliberately followed me so i would hear. i finally locked myself in the...

bullshit.

im so freakn furious i could explode. i went to moms to work her out and her and him ambushed me harassing me about nino again. they are calling me a liar saying they were going to come to my house and look at my emails on my face book ...

ignorance

I so just dont want to do anything today. seriously i have my meeting with the insurance guy this afternoon. i have dishes to do. cleaned up all my cat areas first thing this morning. im cleaned and paid for and ready to go to the gym...

wowsa

i actually dream about someone that is an idiot but i love them in my dream like make love to them how does that make sense? i cant stand their personality and they get on my last nerve in real life. north and south doesnt...

Done

Ill put it to you this way and literally for real im not just talking this time. If i do not have a result in my favor? I am killing myself. the decision has been made. I cannot stand this nothingness this prejudice hellish...

present

morning feeling so sad this morning when i put on the radio it was playing Rick Astley Val Cosens who was one of my very best friends back in the day used to just love that dude and his music. She died at 30. She was one of the...

least you can do

    Last night i dreamed of Ezzy   My nephew is starting university in the fall and i guess it must be in my subconscious thoughts   anyways, it was a group of college/ university kids   and they were having like a frat party...

oink oink

I kind of love my Amata patata and my nugget is lying by the door right now too amata is behind me they were so funny when the weird ass neighbor had his face literally on my window charlotte set like a dog pointing and amata was...

sleep deprived

stupid stupid stupid stupid did i mention stupid? kids next door trapsing up and down the mother fuckn back fire exit stair way? ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL goddamn night i am so sleep deprived all the time it is absurd. I really really...

outrageous

so if i hadnt been harassed enough as of late with my imposing asshole neighbors my landlord is coming this morning to "check" on our smoke detectors and carbon monoxide detectors. i have to be here because of well him and my pets. so...

thinks of me.

Missing Tami like crazy these days but like i told her you treat me well, or go to hell. I dont have to put up wth bad treatment. period. she was doing it on purpose to get rid of . then if i finally leave or say fuck yourself she...

helps me out too

my neighbors are going to be the death of me seriously no word of a lie They are back right full throttle drinking drugging and harassing. Friday night in a drunken stupor they came home at around 1240 and he was beating on her or they on...

5.5 miles

so fn sleep deprived my stanking neighbors of drunken domestic violence fame came home around 1 ish? and woke me the fuck up from having just fallen asleep. Nothing worse. i find that discord too triggers me and reminds me of my parents...

untouchable

Being homeless is not only about not having a home or a bed to sleep in or a roof over your head although those things in and of themselves are of utmost importance homelessness is waking up and having no where to be. no where to...

objective.

so depressed these days there are no words. the sun is setting and im thinking of her. which makes me think of time gone by which makes me miss my youth and toronto and possibility etc so it goes like this i go to vet tech program as a...

red cent

other things that have gone wrong the interview with the ten friends diner the crisis line illegal bitches the asshole taped dick at the gym harassing and STALKING me following me home from a grocery but it doesnt matter because HE is doing...

a long rough haul.

Was sitting here thinking about everything that has happened in the last year. feeling pretty overwhelmed. it has been a long rough haul lately it has been really one thing after another and it has felt like the bottom of my little world has...

low caliber

so lonely and sad. still waiting to get the hell out of windsor. i have some savings with the increased market basket costs in a different community i would fritter through that easily in about o six months or so then what? i dont want...

accident

ha! ran five miles today i find behind my shoulders? hurts me the most when i do everything. weird weakness. so i go to feed the cats last night had been speaking with my mom before i went out which delayed me from going a bit i...

food for thought

cant sleep need to sleep my whole routine and system is out of wack these days had a bad day to summarize very breifly without going into details people exploit the crap out of people with disabilities. when there are interpersonal...

more than some would bother to do.

hey got back from colasanti's a short while ago anything to do with animals, im in. lol anyways, im still sad; i think i figured out what it was that made me saddened. well many things but anyways yesterday i was looking at an album my...

alone -

Morning woke up this morning feeling sad and stale mate. I find i dont hardly enjoy talking to tami anymore.  same old same old she's stuck in a rut herself.  girl needs to pull herself up by the bootstraps and get back into life. when i...

feel the love

i was thinking about the stuck in the same patterns thing like with my horse? it can apply to your thought patterns too where you circle around thinking the same thing. keeping yourself limited and bored inclined to spook. lol just...

good friends

  so today im blue   therapy is hard.   it makes you see things about yourself that hurt to see.   Nugget is not doing well; she is 17.5 and sadly, i dont think she has much time left in her egg timer.   When i lose her...