oink oink

I kind of love my Amata patata and my nugget is lying by the door right now too amata is behind me they were so funny when the weird ass neighbor had his face literally on my window charlotte set like a dog pointing and amata was...

sleep deprived

stupid stupid stupid stupid did i mention stupid? kids next door trapsing up and down the mother fuckn back fire exit stair way? ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL goddamn night i am so sleep deprived all the time it is absurd. I really really...

outrageous

so if i hadnt been harassed enough as of late with my imposing asshole neighbors my landlord is coming this morning to "check" on our smoke detectors and carbon monoxide detectors. i have to be here because of well him and my pets. so...

thinks of me.

Missing Tami like crazy these days but like i told her you treat me well, or go to hell. I dont have to put up wth bad treatment. period. she was doing it on purpose to get rid of . then if i finally leave or say fuck yourself she...

helps me out too

my neighbors are going to be the death of me seriously no word of a lie They are back right full throttle drinking drugging and harassing. Friday night in a drunken stupor they came home at around 1240 and he was beating on her or they on...

5.5 miles

so fn sleep deprived my stanking neighbors of drunken domestic violence fame came home around 1 ish? and woke me the fuck up from having just fallen asleep. Nothing worse. i find that discord too triggers me and reminds me of my parents...

untouchable

Being homeless is not only about not having a home or a bed to sleep in or a roof over your head although those things in and of themselves are of utmost importance homelessness is waking up and having no where to be. no where to...

objective.

so depressed these days there are no words. the sun is setting and im thinking of her. which makes me think of time gone by which makes me miss my youth and toronto and possibility etc so it goes like this i go to vet tech program as a...

red cent

other things that have gone wrong the interview with the ten friends diner the crisis line illegal bitches the asshole taped dick at the gym harassing and STALKING me following me home from a grocery but it doesnt matter because HE is doing...

a long rough haul.

Was sitting here thinking about everything that has happened in the last year. feeling pretty overwhelmed. it has been a long rough haul lately it has been really one thing after another and it has felt like the bottom of my little world has...

low caliber

so lonely and sad. still waiting to get the hell out of windsor. i have some savings with the increased market basket costs in a different community i would fritter through that easily in about o six months or so then what? i dont want...

accident

ha! ran five miles today i find behind my shoulders? hurts me the most when i do everything. weird weakness. so i go to feed the cats last night had been speaking with my mom before i went out which delayed me from going a bit i...

food for thought

cant sleep need to sleep my whole routine and system is out of wack these days had a bad day to summarize very breifly without going into details people exploit the crap out of people with disabilities. when there are interpersonal...

more than some would bother to do.

hey got back from colasanti's a short while ago anything to do with animals, im in. lol anyways, im still sad; i think i figured out what it was that made me saddened. well many things but anyways yesterday i was looking at an album my...

alone -

Morning woke up this morning feeling sad and stale mate. I find i dont hardly enjoy talking to tami anymore.  same old same old she's stuck in a rut herself.  girl needs to pull herself up by the bootstraps and get back into life. when i...

feel the love

i was thinking about the stuck in the same patterns thing like with my horse? it can apply to your thought patterns too where you circle around thinking the same thing. keeping yourself limited and bored inclined to spook. lol just...

good friends

  so today im blue   therapy is hard.   it makes you see things about yourself that hurt to see.   Nugget is not doing well; she is 17.5 and sadly, i dont think she has much time left in her egg timer.   When i lose her...

a good day

tired i need to go to bed just wanted to say i had a good day today im wonked walked on incline on my tread too for about an hour and a half. my step dad dropped my litter and kibbles and stuff off went for my walks after i got...

want to love them

let me start my blog by saying i hate people. period. they are so manipulative and exploitive. they dont have the stones to say the truth. so they play things out to get the results they are after. shaking my head. i had a huge ass...

7 months today

feeling lonely and depressed everyone blowing me off because the weather is nice and they have things theyd rather do that dont include me i havent seen my mom going on two weeks because i was sick so she couldnt be bothered to see me when...

oscars

  went to the gym   think i over did again   feeling very very tired now.   run down   then i went to the grocery to get some fruit   and now im too tired to eat it anyway   so i guess ill have it for tomorrow....

love you too.

feel like crap i slept for about three hours this afternoon and that is with antibiotics i went out walking for about two hours running errands felt good to be out and about and moving then i came back and crashed out hard wonder if...

toxic crap

morning so lonely and bored i jumped on my mini tramp for about twenty minutes trying to clear out my lymph gonna go for a walk up to the dollarama and to grab some over priced cat food from lippi's and the name doenst under describe. lol ...

give up

bronchial pneumonia yep thats right i emailed becky to ask about the line up of my lesson and how i did why she is acting so nervous or indifferent with me no answer. then they wonder why i would want to quit therapy shouldnt make...