Ezzy girl

gmornin Im pondering applying for college yet again elsewhere be a good excuse to move wouldnt it tho? i have three days to get the app in in time for the early bird it is at cost again and that is my biggest concern I have a lot of...

be with

sometimes when i get in my space.... and everything is on my last nerve i cant stand to even look at media it is so chocked full of the patriarch i could puke on myself. there is this one commercial out right now for milk? and it shows a...

memory lane

I called the warm line tonight and i got a woman that ive had a hard time talking to before in the past and tonight we strangely connected. she is gay and asian and has glasses.... that much Ive gathered of our conversations she is around my...

bail

feeling pretty anxious about riding in the cab again for horse back riding tomorrow. that is the thing that stresses me out the most. i hate it as if they cant set me up with a female driver and another cab company. it is so stupid. ...

more

Esmeralda is not doing well. Please pray for her. Please pray for me more.

dunno how

~  When i wake up in the morning i wake up to void. I have no where to go no where im expected to be.... it is isolation at its most extreme. I feel like a senior citizen that is forgotten.  No one calls on you to see if youre ok or checks in to...

loath

Throat hurts and I'm super tired. I'm beginning to loath myself and my circumstances so completely anymore. I hate being disabled and incapable. When I think I'm capable I'm slapped back to my corner or status quo. There are kids more...

everyone else is

~ this new year has not started out well. I feel like i have been a human punching bag for the past like two weeks or so... the last three days in particular you know i dont get it i do everything right i exercise to help with my mood ...

ebb and flow

if i keep running on this treadmill the way i have been ima gonna be buff that is if i refrain from shovelling cookies in the other end lol i actually did really well this past holiday season i only had two days where i ate too much crap...

Happy new year

Dog lessons: Enjoy the simple pleasure of a walk. run and play daily be loyal faithful and quick to forgive always drink plenty of water sometimes, its best to sit close and listen follow your instincts keep digging until you find...

new year but the same

so its new years and here i sit alone as i do every other night of every other year of my adult life it seems as far as i can remember. it would be a perfect night to off myself but i digress i dont think my time here is done yet. dont...