crates

my landlord texted that they are going to be crashing in doing construction on tuesday and or wednesday soooo im going to have to buy a crate from walmart dog crate? to safely contain my cats while they are going in and out. ugh carry...

spirits at sunrise

morning did a distance run yesterday and my back body is hurting me more this morning than anything other.  I often do the interval running HIT but i decided yesterday to try my hand at my distance running since i havent done that in a while mainly...

huggy nuggy

evening taking the time to write these days is rare and sacred. So i deleted my social media accounts; i kind of figure, if people cant be bothered to be in my life for real, then why give them a spectacle with all my personal information and...

bigtop

so aggravated and worked up this is what "counselling" does? there are no services worth shit in this community the only thing that works is my horse back riding and my animals other than that i hate these bitches that are supposed to be...

hurts the most.

ok this blue monday thing is finally setting in over here this rain is enough to make you feel claustrophobic and the little assholes walking home behind me harassing me all the way home; my adrenaline in my ear lobes scared out of my mind three...

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OMG went to a boxfit class yesterday and last sunday.  my body is in a state of shock.  good shock but shock none the less. any whooo so i havent written in a long while mainly because i have had so much swirling in my head that it is hard for...

i have it!

  to be continued             family doctor gave me a script for ativan basically did you know you can use this drug to kill yourself? duly noted. !!  

real or true.

everyday before bed my anxiety goes berserk and i cant sleep the depth of the hurt from the injustices that have been done to me etch so deep that there are not words to express how pained and harmed ive been by the accumulative affect...

Lord knows ive wanted to.

The injustice of my father never being brought to justice over the things he's done to me and my sister and my family in general will be the death of me. During the daytime i find im ok but at night my demons seep in and the thick of it is this...

heard? finally?

my chest is STILL killing me big time. no exaggeration i feel like a constant pressure on it and im unable to eat as i am hungry because it is like my stomach and chest doesnt have enough room for i havent thrown up today tho yesterday as...

off the hook

If it is true, that one can die from a broken heart, I feel that im honestly standing on the edge of that. My stomach and chest have been hurting me so badly for the last two days; i cannot sleep for the pain, and i literally cannot keep anything...