meets the eye

dont have much time to write have the second part of my assessment today that should be enough to make you upset right? counselling .... useless anyways i went up 6 clips in my pace yesterday on the tread and i ran for 50 mins so im...

prayers for ezzy please

morning it is pretty cloudy and dark out this morning sposed to be getting rain my glands under my chin are all swollen this morning.... that was a rough bed. i hardly slept at all dunno why maybe thyroid who knows. anyways im off to the...

still alice

I went and worked out takes me a good hour to get to and back on foot then the inbetween. anyways my mom and i went to see still alice for the later afternoon movie after all and sure enough in the all but maybe ten to fifteen minutes i was in...

out of here

Went and saw my mom yesterday and she wants to go see a movie today but i dont know if im up for that to tell you the truth. I miss my mom something fierce. We can never do anything together anymore that doesnt involve him. We never go walking and...

futures

Hey i slept in a ridiculous amount i cant stand living in this building either i feel like i have to keep my blinds pulled and sequestered because my insane neighbors that live in the apartment building that harass me randomly when i enter or...

peace?

Feeling ridiculously lonely i wish i had someone to talk to. nope my stupid "friend" there from the states continues to email me but doesnt call omg she gets on my last nerve power games head fuckery id rather be alone in peace...

weak

omg im such a weakling I dont have a lot of brute power that is for sure and i hate that people can START at the gym and push/ lift more than i do after years with ease. I remember a big juice head saying to me I might be stronger...

bigots

As i watched Spirit make his bewildered beaten up self up the street, i couldnt help but feel a deep seated sadness of all the injustice and suffering in this world. I love that cat like he were my own, and im useless to him really; what is it i...

fiddy kitty

nothing to say i dont think it is very normal that i am as exhausted as i am after a work out ive always been that even when i was in top condition for me i am exhausted. like crash cart heart disease? lol thyroid from too much...