with Grace

~This is my aunt Theresa and her grand son baby Ben. ( of monkey hand  holding fame) :) I love my Aunt Theresa. she is a true fighter.  More courage and fortitude then anyone ive ever seen; all done with a light and joyful heart.  She humbles me...

won the battle- but waging the war

This is ridiculous this is like the millionth attempt to get this posted. Can we all say ANNOYINGGGGG. ugh I love that picture of Ben and the monkey. lol Every time i look at it it makes me laugh. It reminds me of how i feel most of the time around...

warped

ugh. im awake well to a point.  I was dreaming about Mary Spencer. lol<?? wtf. I was interviewing her for a story.  she should be near graduating soon,,, if not already. I was asking her about that and her "future plans". I woke up to my alarm...

My bad

I feel so depressed all of a sudden lately. It is like now that the pressure around aunt theresa has subsided, i can feel myself again.... oof. I am going to see her today too; they are talking of moving her to a regular room soon so that is a great...

recap

Takes so long for this thing to open, by the time it is up i gotta bugger off basically. Where to start??? Well lets start with Aunt Theresa!   She was sitting in a chair yesterday and is down to oxygen given to her thru the nostril tubes?  She was...

do not resuscitate????

Freakn wow!  I went to see Aunt Theresa, and she was officially removed from life support today, and is breathing on her own with an oxygen mask. :) wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee omg im so...

oooo stormy

yikes it is thundering and lightening out... so this will be brief.  Just saw it. i hate storms. Scare the tar out of me. Aunt Theresa remains about the same....no improvement to report unfortunately. I think im going to go to my niece's dance...

as a rule

~This picture is so funny. It is Ben, Aunt Theresa's little one.  He doesnt know what he thinks of that monkey, but he IS holding its hand. lol sort of how we feel when we are first trying something.... or having feelings for someone.... i THINK i...

tight rope walking

im fading so dont know how coherent this will be... My Aunt Theresa is in the hospital and is not doing very well at all... they figure she wont make it. They originally thought she had clots on the lungs which is bad enough, but now they think she...

raining

~im so depressed and unwell... i seriously have been thinking about taking myself into the hospital and ive never done that before.  Im hurting so much and feel so alone.  I have no one to turn to for support and i feel like i cant talk to anybody...