call back

hi so i did get a call back for the job! I have orientation on the long weekend, but o well. ill take it. I hope they are ok with me only doing 2 days a week tho to start. max of 3 period. the start time is ghastly according to the...

optional

so completely and utterly suicidal and you the know the truth is absolutely no one gives a shit in fact i live in a society where they dare you to off yourself good riddance to old garbage in their opinions. you offer us nothing...

breaking point

sitting here crying i am telling you seriously i am nearing my breaking point. literally i cannot stand to be in this community another minute. and no one i mean no one cares my suffering validates it even they will not stop...

are

feeling completely aggravated tonight my energy is raw and im feeling sick and tired of people being on my case so to speak. im pissed off about my landlord always targeting me for no reason other than hes an asshole im sick of the passive...

on the wind

the morning air is melancholy and the sun reminds me of the life and joy that surrounds me outside it looks like i wont be working there i had my interview on friday, and havent heard from them since. he told me that they would let me...

in your blindness

everytime you love you lose. its true. every time you allow yourself to become connected to someone or something or some place you end up hurt. every single time through loss. whether that is death or loss. so whats the point? ...

if only

and at the end of the week or the beginning depending on your perspective i sit in quiet reflection of the week past and contemplate the week ahead of me assumably we are funny creatures us human beings we long for and grieve that...

inconsiderate

o ya and last weekend was the full moon bullshit affecting my cats up and down the street and my ability to feed them all and this weekend directly across from me is the fuckn carousel of the nations shut the fuck up said the person with ptsd...

get me out of here.

ok in a nut shell literally the encapsulation of my existence. my body is so sore today i am doing nothing but making my way to my interview. ill endeavor to walk part way if not the whole way and back that will be my exercise. so my...

at par

I just so have to get out of windsor people. i dont know what it is going to take until people get it. i am coming home tonight from my walk and the two morons from downstairs are bullying and harassing me. AGAIN. they are worse than...

Dear Rebel

          Dear Rebel       Where do I begin to thank you for all that you have given me?       I don’t think it is possible for me to even find the words, but I thought I might try.       When I first...

accidental?

I have a job interview this week and im blasted stoked! it is part time and minimum wage and i dont care the possibility of me having a job to fill some of my lonely time is appealing if not in practice in theory i will try and if i...

someone

dont think ill ever meet someone it is funny when i was young and busy pursuing other goals i never really focused on developing relationships i was hell bent on my dancing and my teaching and doing my thing pursuing my goals. now...

man monkey

wow in such a bad mood these last few days i feel furious and i dont know why exactly im so sick of the same old same old status quo and nothing ever changes. for real. some woman keeps phoning me about a job but when i call her back it is...

loss

I miss aunt Therese already Just as i predicted, she has headed for Alberta with an open ended ticket having her neighbors tend her house and her property. I predicted that. i also predict she will eventually sell the house, and relocate to...

fence row

we live our lives in our narrow little worlds in very small circles of existence meanwhile there are so many other realities whirling around us right under our noses that we know nothing about has no direct impact on us in our day to...

public servants

you know images of death surely romanticize it especially when youre dealing with reality of the shit day in and day out the images of peaceful walks on beaches and serene landscape surely are alluring compared to this. hows that. so this...

ass backwards

people talk about karma all the time well i have seen some of the shittiest people get promotions and better things in their lives than ill ever get so so much for that theory of what goes around comes around. because if that were the...

cardigans and specks in the universe

my stomach is killing me today i finally after like two weeks had a good shower this morning with hot water and my neighbors not hassling me ie fucking with the water pressure by flushing etc i so do not want to go to the gym i do and i...

signed on

feeling so sad and restless it has been a long three weeks. ive just about had my fill of family for another ten years god i feel like i need a hosing down in a biohazard zone for toxic waste exposure. I just want to be distanced ...

nor should it be

Today was uncle rick's wake. aunt therese is a mess; her knees buckle underneath of her when you hug her you can feel her pain through her body i feel so badly for her. and theres nothing we can do she doesnt want to leave the body all...

namaste

skipped half an hour rowed half an hour did yoga for an hour namaste my butt hurts.   lol wake today for about an hour i cant do much more. gotta get ready got no clothes. at least art is willing to drive me home. ...

disrespect

I am absolutely so tired of people treating me disrespectfully. the absolute audacity. so they know im disabled, and am vulnerable. have low self esteem stand alone really. so they bull doze. because they can. what special kind of YUCK do...

torture.

i have no idea what im doing with myself today so the latest is my landlord has cut the valve to my apartment for hot water. i pay my rent in full on time everytime. i stay to myself i talk to no one i cause no problems whatsover yet they...