as my life

The olympics have been a great distraction for me at night time anyways but i miss Esmeralda something fierce. this morning i cried some i wasnt able to even look at her photos last night or this morning at all when i try to express how i...

how can you not?

I literally feel like i cant do this anymore day in and day out existing in void and silence that are never ending..... achingly lonely for my Esmeralda for companionship for love. for inclusion and authentic reception all the things she...

long nights

hey my days are absolutely boring and never ending anymore i am depressed and have no mojo whatsoever everything is tired, old, and worn out literally and otherwise. no life around here without esmeralda. the youngest one of mine is...

days gone by

what was we can always find fault in our present day things that are less than ideal; things that could be better things that get on our nerves that never change day in and day out yet tho there always comes a time always and heed what...

asshole

feeling blue today went to moms yesterday to work her out; looked forward to it all week long because of the heat etc so we get into the pool and like a half an hour thru it opens up and pours rain she gets out i stayed in and swam anyways....

i have ever known.

i am beyond lost right now. I am up and back to my house done at the gym, before the time i would have even set out for the gym on a regular routined day.   My entire world ended the day she left me. and i seriously dont know what to do...

the same.

~morning~ Mornings fall hard. Night time falls hard..... i feel totally and utterly alone these days. I am missing her soft fur to hug and nuzzle into..... her affection and her go to..... Nothing compares in the words of prince. and it is...