the battle field is in the mind

~morning~ so pooped today.... i dont wanna... oof. tired and my stomach hurts and i feel kind of sick to my stomach too. Hey at least the rain stopped right? I dont really have time to write about things right now but i wanted to post this up let...

sound sleep

~I dreamed that i met mary spencers parents, and they were disapproving of me. Thought she was too good to be my friend, and were outright about their opinions... sort of like how my ex bfs white mom was in regards to meeting me. It felt so real....

sink like a stone

wow... very bizarre night. anywho... the humane society has a section on their web page where they talk about the news at the shelter... they didnt even mention my donation or contribution to the bake sale. They acknowledge the two kids that did it...

with their yech

~Just got home a bit ago.... was a long day. Sometimes people shock me still, with their nastiness. People constantly subordinate me- make me second to them. It is very sickening. And then if i self advocate, regardless of how appropriately, it is...

ten heads

morning... lately, i get up i take my shower, tend to my kitties, eat breakfast, clean up, and promptly want to go back to bed. lol I dont want to do anything lately. Soooooooooo freakn tired.  and my tummy has been hurting me. They called...

food- and for thought!

what a difference a decent computer makes! The colors on the screen even look different then mine.... lol Im at my moms and mom is cooking dinner. He is trying to stave off dinner, mister control freak for no real reason other then because. He is very...

"poop"ed

Hey... It seems to feel better when im moving. When i sit down for any period of time, the pain comes back. If i continue to move, it eases up.... but eventually you become tired obviously.... this is getting to the point of unbearable. I feel like...

role models and doubled over...

If this stomach keeps up with it im gonna have to go into the hospital... nothing is offering me  relief.  I was talking with someone about all the kids i worked with back in the day.. .how it feels good to have influence and feel like you helped...