disrespect

I am absolutely so tired of people treating me disrespectfully.

the absolute audacity.

so they know im disabled, and am vulnerable. have low self esteem stand alone really.

so they bull doze. because they can.

what special kind of YUCK do you have to be, to treat people in that position the way they treat me?

man i am so mofo sick of it i get why people go postal. for real.

so many examples where do you start

one thing that has me pissed off

is this

Rebel is my program horse at the barn.

yes, he is lame and isnt in the main program anymore because of it.

however, he is MY program horse. and i feel comfortable around him

and i groom him and spend time with him because he is my comfort zone.

MY program ends in three weeks; literally.

I have been funded to go back another term by the hospital, if im in windsor and if i even want to.

their entire goal has been to get rid of me anyways.

never wanted me there in the first place.

so she has been trying to find a home for rebel to retire him; put him to pasture.

aka get him off THEIR tab.

(because they are so poor?) as if

anyways they have roller coastered me around; this is the last time youll see him

say your goodbyes

then it falls thru and he's there the next week anyways.

dont get me wrong im not complaining about him still being there

my beef is this.

my program ends in three weeks.  Rebel is MY program horse. 

why do i not matter?  and my program is so "whatever" that they just HAVE to get rid of him

before june 22?

i mean they have kept him this long; whats another three weeks to them?

again i reiterate he is MY program horse if he is no one else's .

why do i and my program? not matter.

nothing like docking me three weeks. like im garbage and whatever.

becky is even not going to be there my last week.

feel the bond.

HURTFUL.

doesnt encapsulate.

so that is that.

then there is i found i baby bird.

called wings where i volunteer. told me to feed him and box him humane truck would pick him up

so i did it called the driver.

she asked if she could come get him the following morning

as she wouldnt get there until midnite otherwise for time.

i said sure whatever.

thats fine

calls in the morning i have an emergency sorry cant come for 8 like we planned.

i said thats fine as long as you can get here in the hour we are good

well i cant promise you that blah blah

then if i get riled up they have something to put me down over.

so then i called wings and said

what i just wrote here asked if they could come pick him up

no we have an emergency and we are backed up too she says

i said well i cant wait around here all day

i said i dont want the bird to die.

she says " well feed it donna" and HUNG THE FUCK UP ON ME.

well fuck you.

i have you in my life insurance policy both of them wings and wetra

and im being done like THAT.

same with my family

how about fuck all of you

i wont even BOTHER with life insurance

because none of you deserve shit on a stick for how youve treated me.

how about that.

my sister asked her if i could ride with to the funeral

well we dont know what we are doing etc blah blah blah

whenever there is something to do with public

she doesnt want to be associated with me.

RUDE.

i said i can pay someone if they will drive me as a favor

NO she says.

bite me i say

you fuckn phoney biotch

shed be more willing to help out ANYONE ELSE

than me.

thats a counsellor.

w/e bitch you dont need the money i left you or your kids either

for real.

i hate people with a passion.

i still cant believe nancy hung the fuck up on me.

bffs with melanie coulter

thats another one.

if i report abuse of an animal

she ignores me or worse still invalidates me

i saw that old man kick that rotweiller RIGHT IN THE RIBS and yell at her

he leaves her out there with no water and no love.

etc

he had another dog he left lying in the elements freezing to death literally a hundred years old all rickety

in his own feces.

and she did nothing then and adopted him another dog.

so sick of being invalidated.

i called nancy back and said you seriously just hung up on me?

i said grow the fuck up.

and hung up on her.

obnoxious.

after i donate my time and do their grunt work.

fuck you

wanted to get rid of me?

mission accomplished.

you nasty mo fos

and when i go my money will be going with me.

at my moms the other day and they were going on about something

i said why dont you give them his cell number

simple as that.

she literally looks at me and says "o fuck off"

? excuse me psychotic bitch?

who the fuck talks to anyone let alone their daughter like that?

it is like her calling me a whore one time years ago because im allergic to salmon.

then she laughs about it.

im like just trying to help you out and im getting reemed?

how about fuck you< didnt say that

but true that.

went to the laundry and every man that came in literally crawled up my ass and were trying to dominate and shove me around.

seriously absolutely no exaggeration.

this old man came in after me and had put his wash in the dryers

i had the dryer under him.

i was taking my stuff out of the dryer talking to tami on the phone.

he came in and just stood there. no excuse me no can i get in here please nothing

just stood there huffing and puffing.

IN KINDERGARTEN BOYS AND GIRLS WE LEARN TO USE OUR WORDS TO GET WHAT WE NEED AND WANT.

WE USE OUR WORDS TO ASK FOR WHAT WED LIKE.

for fuckn real

then the bastard he had to wait like what two mins for me to finish then step out of his highness' way?

and he was calling me a quote 'bitch' talking on my phone.

these men in this town think they can control every vagina within their line of vision. no exaggeration.

I WANT OUT OF HERE.

and that brings us to the final example of the disrespect

i write chris ballard the minister of housing, bill mauro the minister of municipal affairs, the minister of women's affairs, minister of community and social services, the premier kathleen wynne.

THEY HAVE ALL IGNORED MY REQUEST AND THAT OF A PROFESSIONAL DOCTOR TO TRANSFER MY SUBSIDY OR PROVIDE ME ONE ELSEWHERE SO I CAN RELOCATE AND GET OUT OF THIS SHIT.

yep no wonder people go postal

another one wings has tshirts for their volunteers.

i of course. have never been given one.

i asked before too

lord knows theyd never lay claim to ME.

: (

ugh.

goodnight.

 

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