my one foot is absolutely killing me lately
new shoes are a factor; the other ones so worn they are falling apart
so no choice.
so yesterday uncle rick had a second stroke on his good side
so it is not looking good for him
he is now on life support
my brother in laws sister in law hung herself too
so we were all hanging out at the ICU yesterday
my mom was there thru the entire surgery and left around 6 went back at 8
shes gonna come up sick herself for the stress of it all
aunt therese is a shadow of herself; i dont think shes stepped foot out of there really other than to go home to sleep
kenny left to go back home to alberta so i dont know what is going on there
probably work related im assuming
i dont know if they got hit by that bad weather in red deer as well.
i am so very sick of being alone i cant stand it anymore
with being unable to open my windows because of a certain someone that will remain nameless
my apartment is already over warm and the warm weather hasnt even begun to happen.
then my moms douchey neighbor that made me wait for him to install it and then did it half assed deliberately
that man is a special kind of sick in the head.
when he wanted a piece of ass he kissed mine
but now that he is remarried to a dyke in the closet i might add miserable thing herself
he is an asshole anymore
rude to my mom and rude to me
he is middler eastern anyways and has zero respect for women anyway.
if he didnt want to do it fair enough
just say so
you dont dick someone around waiting on you to only do it half assed.
i could have paid an installer back at the end of april
rather than peak season now.
he is a fuckn asshole
broke my brand new a/c when i bought the fuckn thing years ago.
yep hes a special kind of delightful ass crack.
i am so sick of my gym and the same cast of clowns.
the manager came in yesterday and acts like she has multiple personality disorder
some days she talks to me like im her best friend all chummy
other days she can hardly stand to say hello even
there are other women in there that do the same with me
if i ignore them they literally shove themselves down my throat
you know that is a form of bullying itself
wacko i am a magnet for the wacko
i want out of here period.
gimme my subsidy to transfer where i choose
and im so out of here.
those cats outside tho are going to be hard done by
i actually took over their care from grace who passed away
ya tami talked to me long enough to get the lo down on my trip and its outcome then she does the same exact things on me again
the hanging up on me for call waiting and the yawning and the acting like im a boring pain in her ass
then why bait and reel me in again and again and again?
she is a fuckn wacko too
i dont see uncle rick coming out of this
they did surgery yesterday and when i went over to drop food off for aunt therese and heather
his head was shaved.
they wont let people in there really
only immediate family and two at a time.
he was fresh from surgery so i didnt want to be in there anyways.
even if he survives he will be dependent on machines.
if he were an animal theyd put him down.
just goes to show minute to minute man we never know what is coming in the next second for any of us.
this morning charlotte woke me up at 6 spilling over my water bottle
then ding dong amate starts flying around here like a crazy fuck
and nugget just hides in the closet anymore most of the time.
the same closet ezzy girl hid in
simeon and ezzy took to a closet towards their end.
i dont think nugget is gonna be around much longer frankly
when i try to eat with her now she rarely comes over
i lay down my top blanket and she will come for a bit.
o my poor old nugget
the took for granted always present background actor
that never featured prominent in my scenes
but who's presence has been appreciated noted and valued.
i feel like they treat me like im a baby
like im a twelve year old
im not allowed to be a real support at the hospital
here i am the poorest of them all
and im the one feeding the entire team.
like i feed the cats.
the food lady.
o well at least im able to contribute something.
aunt therese and heather and ken have given me so much over the years.
it is the least i can do
this month however has been exceptionally expensive for me
and next month i have my license renewal whether i want to or not
getting enhanced. at least.
talk to you later