i feel so upset and stomach knotted
Uncle Rick is not doing well
we figure he is brain dead already since his second stroke on saturday
they are doing brain scans looking for activity is my understanding
he has not regained consciousness since his surgery on saturday
and they said he should have come out of it later that night
which he never has at all.
so it is such a very sad situation.
poor aunt therese
i can literally feel her pain and suffering
i couldnt hardly sleep for it last night
picturing that poor woman going into her home again all alone
a home that he and her spent their lives together raising their children
together the last few years in retirement.
her children both live in alberta
aunt therese will be completely and utterly
uncle rick used to work at the golf course
he'd pick up golf balls to get a free golf game? or reduced or something like that
uncle rick forever frugal lol when meanwhile he is literally
a millionaire. no exaggeration.
nugget has been doing a bit better thank goodness
i went over to moms to work her out yesterday
not as sore today from the yoga. still a bit
im watching a couple kiss each other goodbye outside my window.
going off to work.
makes me think of aunt therese and uncle rick
how many times they didnt do that matter of fact
dont we all really?
sad, and so scary
you just never know when
or how. yikes
was thinking more about savoy's comparison of herself to a dancer.
what an absolute crock of crap
the woman is obviously so ignorant as to what it takes to be a dancer for real.
id like to see that moose put on a pair of pointe shoes.
id like to see a winnowy ballerina punch a heavy bag.
the body conditioning of both sports are so polar
there is no comparison
other than fancy foot work nada.
id love to see savoy kick
? right? turn out?
id love to see a ballerina do a gazillion push ups
lol for real just the stupidest and most offensive analogy ive ever heard.
you my friend, are a boxer, not a dancer.
i finally found my nice tea here in windsor and bought four cannisters
already down to three.
i am going to give mom one too btw
i received my june cicb periodic payment
straight into my savings account.
and i was approved for life insurance!
that was one good bit of news yesterday
so that makes me feel a bit more comforted knowing
that i can leave somewhat of a legacy
regardless of how much smaller than if i could have with my life's work.
still havent heard anything about the subsidy transfer
i have a lunch ready for them at the hospital although im sure under the circumstances
no one will have much of an appetite
if there is no brain activity
they will be pulling him from life support
and see if that kicks the brain into what it should do
if not then they are harvesting his organs.
shaking my head.
i cant even fathom
i cant imagine how aunt therese feels
just all of a sudden
your loved one is gone
no last hug no kiss goodbye knowing that it is the last.
i cant imagine the chest crushing loss.
like i said of having to go back home
without your life partner of 45 yrs
the day he had his second stroke was their 45th wedding anniversary.
you couldnt make this stuff up.
anyways im off for now.
come back gather myself clean myself up some
then off to comfort in anyway i can.
my neighbors were acting like asses again last night
must of got their hands on some good "stuff"
monday night? and they were screaming and of course harassing ME with their friends.
she talks about me to them in front of me now because she has been told NOT TO TALK TO me.
so she talks about me to them
she is one of the most pathetic human beings.
you know she has the potential to be a quasi good person her and him
the two of them need to go to rehab
and CHOOSE to grow the fuck up
then maybe then.
have a good one
i entered the CBC poetry contest.
i would love to win a runner up prize even a long list making would be extremely flattering.
ive had other things published in my past.
but i havent written as much in the recent past.
i was looking for my poems my book of them
couldnt find them
i have so much sifting and that june 5 the diabetes car is coming to pick up my crap
so this weekend will be the final purge.
cant wait in fact.
then im sure
a funeral but then again you never know
a miracle, could happen.
this has been so unpredictable there is really
o ps. tami decides to call me last night
on monday night right?
o fuck off.
dumb dumb nasty abusive bitch.
i wanted to rip her face off through the phone
i said o now you can be bothered to call me on a monday night?
and i hung the fuck up
fuck that shit. you fly by night self centered game playing ASS.
i called her on saturday and told her in message that uncle rick had had the second stroke
she was too busy acting the ass
grand standing for her sons friends
talk about grow up!
jerry springer guests her and the ones downstairs.