feeling so sad and restless
it has been a long three weeks.
ive just about had my fill of family for another ten years
god i feel like i need a hosing down in a biohazard zone
for toxic waste exposure.
I just want to be distanced
this is why i want out of here
and i have no one close enough to me to even care about how i feel about all of this.
sometimes i wonder if any of this is real
i think sometimes how did we all end up here
in this gig
that none of us signed on for.
all floating around on a breeze like
is it real? is anything real anyways?
all temporary in between space
what is all of this for?
why are we here?
why did we get no choice in being here?
other than removing ourselves.
there really is no other choice
it isnt or wasnt ours anyways.
to be here.
that decision was made for us
we get to determine that outcome
to a point.
the in between is what i dont understand
what is it all for seriously
is there an after life?
everything we have in our life is temporary
it is always slipping through our fingers
the only thing that remains forever
and even those are gone when those that were directly involved are gone
except for energy
i believe that we are all connected in way of matter too
that there is residual DNA of all things left behind
that then creates new things.
so in that way we are all from the same